Are friends still friends like this?

I kw already. Which place heavier in my heart. But its too late. I'm so stupid. I can't save this friendship anymore. It's my fault, isn't it? When i found out, i can't do anything already.

There always good and bad things that happen. yesterday was nat ho b'day. Happy b'day to nat ho! N yesterday the yesterday was elaine b'day. At around 6pm they went to celebrate. I was late abt 1hour. Shyt! hahas, BUt i go buy cake marhhx so choice. Then someone in that group like damn pek chek(dun wan to say who)(if not spoil my mood). Then when reached, the stupid yong xiang keep like disturb me lorhhhx. I was like laughing all the way. Then we waiting for qi xuan and the yi ren to come. Okay, now he really pek chek. Cant blame him cox he have curfew marhhx. NO choice. Then in the end we went to the block there to celebrate 1st. After singing the song, cutting the cake, Qi xuan called up and ask me go fetch him. so i went. Then we took the cake to smash on elaine the face. Hahas. Then something bad happen. I dun wan tell lerhhx. After that yong xiang they all left then left wendy me elaine qi xuan and yi ren. We went to blk 170 there and slack and then drink a little. Then after awhile, we went back home lerhhx. Hahas. Then on the taxi he keep bully me lorhhx. Asshole but nvm larhhx. 
The next day...
I woke up with a very swollen eye. I didn't went to mrs lee tuition. Missed up around 1chapter lucky today gt go if not die arhx. They teached until chapter 9.2 already lehhhx. Then nw damn ugly. Skip skip. Then li xian called ask me go eat together. Then when meet li xian, kirby and hui ting was there but i was like damn rude. I kept msg-ing some1(can't tell). hehes. Then meet my mum later and we went to eat the yummy pasta mania. skip skip. Daryl and i sleep together. Tok tok then sleep lerhhx hahas.
The next day(which is today)...
Went to mrs lee tuition but my eyes damn pain like cannot see like that. Nvm. Then damn tired. Cant realy concentrate with one eyes. Nw damn ugly dun wan to tok abt it. hahas. sianz sia. thats all. Now going to see my ah ma lerhhx. Going out with elaine and others today. dun post lerhhx. bb. There always good and bad things that happen. yesterday was nat ho b'day. Happy b'day to nat ho! N yesterday the yesterday was elaine b'day. At around 6pm they went to celebrate. I was late abt 1hour. Shyt! hahas, BUt i go buy cake marhhx so choice. Then someone in that group like damn pek chek(dun wan to say who)(if not spoil my mood). Then when reached, the stupid yong xiang keep like disturb me lorhhhx. I was like laughing all the way. Then we waiting for qi xuan and the yi ren to come. Okay, now he really pek chek. Cant blame him cox he have curfew marhhx. NO choice. Then in the end we went to the block there to celebrate 1st. After singing the song, cutting the cake, Qi xuan called up and ask me go fetch him. so i went. Then we took the cake to smash on elaine the face. Hahas. Then something bad happen. I dun wan tell lerhhx. After that yong xiang they all left then left wendy me elaine qi xuan and yi ren. We went to blk 170 there and slack and then drink a little. Then after awhile, we went back home lerhhx. Hahas. Then on the taxi he keep bully me lorhhx. Asshole but nvm larhhx.  The next day...
I woke up with a very swollen eye. I didn't went to mrs lee tuition. Missed up around 1chapter lucky today gt go if not die arhx. They teached until chapter 9.2 already lehhhx. Then nw damn ugly. Skip skip. Then li xian called ask me go eat together. Then when meet li xian, kirby and hui ting was there but i was like damn rude. I kept msg-ing some1(can't tell). hehes. Then meet my mum later and we went to eat the yummy pasta mania. skip skip. Daryl and i sleep together. Tok tok then sleep lerhhx hahas.
The next day(which is today)...
Went to mrs lee tuition but my eyes damn pain like cannot see like that. Nvm. Then damn tired. Cant realy concentrate with one eyes. Nw damn ugly dun wan to tok abt it. hahas. sianz sia. thats all. Now going to see my ah ma lerhhx. Going out with elaine and others today. dun post lerhhx. bb.

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yesterday went out to eat with zhi hao, zheng yao, vincent and jovia. i wanted to eat pasta mania but then most of them wanted to eat yoshinoya so we switch target. I went to order salmon set. yummy! yummy! Then after eating finish, me, vincent, zhang yao was like still hungry so i went to buy subway cookies. Then zheng yao and vincent went to buy meat ball and fish fillet(fried!). hahas. After that we went to Popular cox that ugly jovia want to buy soemthing from there lorhhhx. hahas.
Then on the way we kept tickling each other. I beat Zheng Yao up cox he say i'm his dog! damn it!Nvm. Act with him. Then after that Zheng yao and Zhi hao went back home left vincent, jovia and me. We sat on chairs and sang songs. My voice damn nice. hahas.

Today post
Went to sch per normal. Gt scolded by teachers per normal. Cry per normal. I complained to jovia and wei hong. They saw me cry. My face damn black today. Dun wan to tell u what happen. Wan u can asked me. Eat japanese resturant with jovia. the eggy rice and then ate ice cream and drank yakult at jovia hse. Hahas. Jovia hse like my hse like tt. hahas. Her hse hav many yummy food, next tym must go! hahas. Then sang kty songs. Jovia voicedamn nan ting lorhhx. Joking. end of post.

Labels: idiotic

Life is really boring. Almost everyday you'll do the same thing, say the same phrase and others. Then you would try to find something that u can do. Sad thing is that this state is so small that you can see almost everything during the 15years that you're in. I mean looked! Have you ever get sick and tired of this place? Look here, whye people is always going on vacations? It's because everything here is boring. Those attractions, we have seen it for millions of time. We shopped, we lazed around. Even topics are boring. Please there nothing more we can talk. Lols. Sick and tired...
Today that idiotic Zheng yao kept calling me his dog. I acted along with him thoough. Lols. FUn. Then that Shaq onli kw hw to laugh! She didn't helped me at all instead she make things worst. OMG. Elaine and nat ho's b'day coming already. There plenty to buy. August 1 too! SIanz. I think i will bake cake for them. Be prepared to eat those. Hahas. I remembered during Wei hong's b'day i baked a cake and its not very nice but still they ate every single piece. This time, i'm not sure if i should bake. I scared nat ho won't give me face sia! Since she such a choser. Hahas. I think need to go elaine's sch on friday need to ask everyone to meet out during Sat. Hahas. Her b'day celebration! Muhahahas! Someone gonna kanna pushed into the boys toilet. Sorry those that are in it. I don't think this is harsh. B'day marhhx. lols. Once in a lifetime. N seriously. I think i'm gonna shoped her b'day present soon...I don't know what to buy for her. Sianz. Later she damn chosey. Sianz sia. sianz sia. Nid do homework if not mrs will scold again. Btw, she want to meet my mum so must act guai for awhile. I think i damn jian.! Bye bye. Talk laters.
Tata!

Labels: Lols. another boring day

On Monday went to celebrate teachers day. Most of all, i came to performed. I have choir performance. when i at the stage, That idiotic Charles called my name. Damn pai seh lorhhhx. Shout so loud. Damn shy. Hahas. Then after that can't concentrate on singing. I kept looking at them lorhhhx. Charles, august and them. Then vincent gave me a face. Sigh. Mr poon also. I think i sang terribly. Even though, xin rui say she heard me. Actually because of them lorhhhx! The more they see me the more louder i sang. Then when i'm out of the stage, nat ho was like shaking her head lorhhhx. After the performance, went to find teachers. Then saw charles their playing bb. Vincent say i'm so unprofessional. I knew it larhhhx, how cn a leader laughed? They should give their small ones confident larhhhx. I don't act like a leader at all. Hahas. Then watched them played bb. After that went to eat with nat ho, charles they all. Wa lao! Actually wanted to eat pasta mania, but now lehx? No choice sia. Hahas. Then on the way kept being insulted by them. Wa lao! Vincent and august took my phone and dunno do wad lorhhhx. Sigh. Hahas. Then some showed me tricks, Then wad now u c it now u dun then other other 1 asked me do some hand sigh n say i'm fadgard. Dunno wads that sia? Tell vincent then he laughed. Funny mehx? lols. While eating, charles and marcus came. I think they all going chambers. Lols. Didnt follow. Went with Nat ho to buy her new watch. Wa! Levis watch lehhhx, don't play play. hahas. Saw Zheng yao and royston in seoul Garden. Damn it larhhhx. Eat infront of us. Those idiots. (with some girls.) Then went to Jovia hse. hahas. Talked and talked. Then went home then go kk. I think i reached home at around 11pm. Hahas. Damn tired. While playing slept halfway.

Labels: Angry

I didn't know that i have such nice friends. When have i ever smile heartily. Without Tiny, I guess i can't go crazy anymore. Blame me. Making him angry all the time. Now i guess he and i are not best friends anymore. Missing the memories that we had back then. The time he stood up for me when charles said my cakes taste disgusting. Missing the insults he always gave me regardless good or bad. Missing him asking me for sweets all the time. Those plots he make to make me unhappy become part of my happy memories. Those warm and gentle pictures kept flowing in my head. How Can i regain back our friendship from before? I'm damn sad. Everytime, i saw him with them and i will get jealous. when i heard he care about our friendship, i was damn happy. Must i always be the one that take the 1st step. Must i apologise? Not talking but always see him is damn dreadful.
Now happy memories. Hahas. Went to the zoo with Yi ren and Qi xuan and elaine. OMG! How many years i've been there. I gone crazy sia. I keep shouting and screaming. NNNN i saw red butts! Baboon! hahas. Then finally my energy used up as i didn't get to eat a proper meal. We rest awhile at the end and then went back. On the way i was in a heated agruement with Qi xuan and Yi ren. Damn it! They kept bullying me lorhhx. Pulled and pulled my hair. Then after that i went to meet my cuz and attend the performance. I hate this kind of stuffs. Movements rescrited. Must be properly dressed. Sianz.
Pictures will be update soon.
Went to KK hospital to visit a friend. Lols. I went with jeremy, min yi and li xian. Li xian and i met jeremy 1st. Then we walked to KK. I think i'm so rude sia. Hahas. He tried to talk to me(seem to me cox li xian instruct him) but i think i ignore him. But i dun wan to be friendly with them. I don't know why though. Hw i wish to be more open and let every bit of my feeling out. Then saw minyi . Went mac. Later jeremy looked for us and he need to go back already. So we waited until 5.45 until all of us can go up. When we reached, it so good to to c him safe and sound. He really had ppl worried about him. His looks became, not telling. But he does not sound or look like a patient. Glad. I guess I'm not visting him ever again.
Its so tiring. Everyday. Today i stay at home. Acted like a good girl. I lazed at my bed. My head damn pain. I want to get out of the house. Seriously, whenever i'm in my hse. I looked like a bird stuck in its cage. No freedom. I don't want anything like this.My house ia a prison. Once u r in, u in FOREVER. I don't blame me borning in this world. Life is just so tiring. No one would ever understand the pain that i felt. Looking happy its not a mask. I'm really happy that i saw my friends. Theuy are the one that believe in me. Giving me comforts whenever i in need. Its just bad luck for me to be born in this family. My heart...are smashed into pieces. Theres no way i can feel anything again. My families is like troubles.

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