Saturday, August 29, 2009 ♥
wonderful ♥ 5:20 AM
I didn't know that i have such nice friends. When have i ever smile heartily. Without Tiny, I guess i can't go crazy anymore. Blame me. Making him angry all the time. Now i guess he and i are not best friends anymore. Missing the memories that we had back then. The time he stood up for me when charles said my cakes taste disgusting. Missing the insults he always gave me regardless good or bad. Missing him asking me for sweets all the time. Those plots he make to make me unhappy become part of my happy memories. Those warm and gentle pictures kept flowing in my head. How Can i regain back our friendship from before? I'm damn sad. Everytime, i saw him with them and i will get jealous. when i heard he care about our friendship, i was damn happy. Must i always be the one that take the 1st step. Must i apologise? Not talking but always see him is damn dreadful. Now happy memories. Hahas. Went to the zoo with Yi ren and Qi xuan and elaine. OMG! How many years i've been there. I gone crazy sia. I keep shouting and screaming. NNNN i saw red butts! Baboon! hahas. Then finally my energy used up as i didn't get to eat a proper meal. We rest awhile at the end and then went back. On the way i was in a heated agruement with Qi xuan and Yi ren. Damn it! They kept bullying me lorhhx. Pulled and pulled my hair. Then after that i went to meet my cuz and attend the performance. I hate this kind of stuffs. Movements rescrited. Must be properly dressed. Sianz.Pictures will be update soon.Went to KK hospital to visit a friend. Lols. I went with jeremy, min yi and li xian. Li xian and i met jeremy 1st. Then we walked to KK. I think i'm so rude sia. Hahas. He tried to talk to me(seem to me cox li xian instruct him) but i think i ignore him. But i dun wan to be friendly with them. I don't know why though. Hw i wish to be more open and let every bit of my feeling out. Then saw minyi . Went mac. Later jeremy looked for us and he need to go back already. So we waited until 5.45 until all of us can go up. When we reached, it so good to to c him safe and sound. He really had ppl worried about him. His looks became, not telling. But he does not sound or look like a patient. Glad. I guess I'm not visting him ever again. Its so tiring. Everyday. Today i stay at home. Acted like a good girl. I lazed at my bed. My head damn pain. I want to get out of the house. Seriously, whenever i'm in my hse. I looked like a bird stuck in its cage. No freedom. I don't want anything like this.My house ia a prison. Once u r in, u in FOREVER. I don't blame me borning in this world. Life is just so tiring. No one would ever understand the pain that i felt. Looking happy its not a mask. I'm really happy that i saw my friends. Theuy are the one that believe in me. Giving me comforts whenever i in need. Its just bad luck for me to be born in this family. My heart...are smashed into pieces. Theres no way i can feel anything again. My families is like troubles.Labels: friends