31/7/09
To me. Life was just what God had given me. Sometimes, to me, life was meaningless. Nothing great about it. Until today, i know how is it like to live. I remembered there was one time i went with 3e5 to do CIP hour at old-folks home. We were very shy at first. Later we started to tok to the people over there. Disappointed, as they either ignore us or reject us. So we started to approach those uncle. There, we met Ong Boo Hai Grandpa. We started play games. I showed him magic but he see through it. Then we started to play cards game like Big 2 but he doesn't know how. we tried all games and then started to chat. He told us bout hiss families and so on. We brought him green tea also. Sad case, it's time to go. We promised him that we will come again tomorrow and we did. We brought for him noodles and green tea. We kept visiting him. We find it pleasent though. Somehow, entertaining. Maybe we like social stuffs? Lols. Then we stopped visiting him. SFY and Mid-Year exam is approching at that time. After the Mid-Years we went to visit him and tell him the reasons as we were quite sorry. He told us that hes going to die. We thought he was joking but then We could see form his face that its not. His face was shaking and he was crying. He say that he was very happy that he could meet the 2 of us. His tears falls. Then we promised him that we will come again tomorrow. We went and email the old-folks home. Say," if theres anything happen to ward3, ong boo hai, please inform us."
Only until 31/7/09, i went to old-folks home by myself, I request for him but they say he passed away. I was stuned. If i have the power i would reversed time back and visit him for the last time. I'm very sure that he was disappointed that we didn't visit him but i'm sure he would understand why. I regretted. I broke a promise. Though it's small but it's something big to him.

To Ong Boo Hai grandpa,
I'm sorry for breaking a promise. I have my own reasons and hope that you would understand. I'm sorry that i can't get to see you for the last time. I know that you are sad and disappointed with us. I can understand how its feel. I still can remembered vividly your crying face. I hope you forgive me. Now you can see your mum now. Please watch over me from the skies. Thank you. Blessed us.

countless of people are thinking ways to make them die easier but there countless of people are afraid of death as there are more important things for them to do but they can't do. Please, cherish your life. It may not be a big thing but it's not a small thing either.

1/8/09
Meet xin rui at the mrt. How dare she late. Nvm. We took bus to elaine's hse. Almost took the wrong bus. Then we meet elaine at NTUC. Accompany xin rui go buy her chicken rice. Elaine then went to pick her daddy. Then me and xin rui went to her void deck to wait for them. Damn long sia. We ate crackers and so on. We went on to elaine hse the void deck there and sit. Gt cat. Ask xin rui go buy food. Then when we want to feed the cat then they came. Eugene help us opened can food. Then give it eat. Later we find another cat at the parking lot. Fed it also. They eat the food then ignore us lorhhx. How clever animals this days. Lols. Then we went to elaine hse. I helped her moved her hse the tv to her room cox later watching ghost movie marhhx. Not bad. Damn heavy. Study 1st. Then everyone no mood. So we watch 1st. Tt si eugene kept disturb me lorhhx. Bully sia. Keep throwing things at me. Then elaine like damn wad lorhhhx. Help her daddy then me. Everytime he throw, i throw back, i kenna scolded. Idiot. Steady until like that lorhhx. Lols. After watching 1 1/2 of the movie, xin rui went home. Then after awhile we went out for some fresh air. Damn hot! On the way they keep bully me lorhhhx. Then played until damn happy sia. Angry though. I accidentally hit eugene's phone on the bar. sorry. Not purposely. Who ask yoou to keeep that pic. Idiot. LOls. Then draw him and elaine until like wad. Then he keep beatinng me sia. Lols. Then after that, need go home already cox like Elaine need go sin tua. Then she walk us to the northpoint. On the way engene talk bout some serious matter. Then he took mrt and i took bus.
-the end-

Watch over from the skies.

Labels: broken a promise. Regretted.